I'm a loud, crazy,rumour-spreading lunatic. This is me, this is who i am... I'm just me?
People think it's all about fitting in or being accepted. Truth is, this is as real as i get. I don't care for fitting in or acceptence.I can't change,believe me, i've tried. I had times where i sit in my room staring into my own eyes through a mirrior,wondering what i can change (physically and mentally). If i need to drop my pounds or maybe take off the glasses and pop my eyes with my new eyeshadow. I just stand there, silent, anxious, absurd. Looking for an answer. The next day i'll show up at school with my hair down, earring and some pink lip gloss. I would act girly and funky. Then the next day i'll wear red lipstick with messy hair and some
'rocker' neckalaces and bracelets. I would always change. But it's all about finding who you are in highschool. Appearence or not, you need to find you really are inside, what you like, what your personality like. Match your personality with your appearence. I'm bubbley,loud,crazy...:Eyeliner,hair up, studs. Easy as that.
I'm me, i'll always be me, nothings going to change. There will be improvements and thats it.
Dealing with myself was somthing i've struggled with for a long time. Dealing with how i look, comparing myself to that model in the magazine. Now i understand appearence isn't everything. And if it's anyone i will act or look like... It'll be me:)
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